Sometimes I want the big traditional church wedding, and at other times I just want to elope somewhere exotic?

Have the big wedding. When you go up there, none of your nervousness will matter. Its just about being up there with your special someone, and declaring your love for each other. Plus, this is a once-in-a-lifetime experience for you. Make it special. Make it photo-album worthy. You know you always see the grand weddings on TV, here's your chance to actually have one of those! Don't let it go! And plus, its just going to be your friends and family! At most, just invite your family and 1 0r 2 of your BEST friends. Then you won't be scared. Good luck, and congratulations!